I should

Honestly just stop thinking. It really does ruin a lot.
I'm like blasting Battlefield by Jordin Sparks & If It Means A Lot To You by A Day To Remember. Seriously such amazing songs. Tomorrow should be a pretty terrible day. But that is pretty typical I guess. Found out someone else feels the exact same way I feel, so maybe I am not totally insane yet. But I will go insane if I fail two of my quizzes tomorrow, which knowing my luck, is the most probable thing. I am so not in sync with the world right now. I feel so detached and disconnected with everything for reasons I can't exactly put my finger on, but it would be a grand thing to find out. Pretty stoked for a sleepover with my best friends tomorrow night, hopefully it ends up happening. I legitimately miss those girls to death, so that's something to look forward to. I don't know what I'm talking about here. Such random venting. Hopefully hanging out with Ben tomorrow despues de la escuela. That boy means the world to me. It's nice to have a boyfriend who is my best friend too. I could not imagine being with anyone anywhere near as perfect for me as he is. Honestly. He's always there for me. No matter what stupid stuff I put him through. And I do put him through A LOT of crap. I mean, not intentionally, but that's no justification or excuse. I know I don't deserve him. I have NO idea why in the world I'm putting this online but whatever. He's amazing. And he deserves to have good things about him for the entire population of the world with access to internet to read. I do not know what in the world I would do without him by my side. He's the only person who can really make me truly happy. He's even making me laugh at this very moment, I can not believe he's still here with me. He's always there for me somehow. I do not know how he puts up with me, but I am so incredibly happy that he finds a way. I would love to be with him for a long time. I can't picture anyone else making me happier than he does every day. Or someone I can get along with. Well we do fight. A lot. But hopefully things will continue to get better as they are now. He's someone I can really depend on. No matter how obnoxious I get. Hopefully that doesn't change anytime soon. Seeing him is probably the only reason that I can make it through the day alive. Not really. That's an exaggeration. But you get the point. I find the fact that I have absolutely NO idea who "you" are. Like some random creeper can Google my name and read all of this. Hm. Oh well. This is ridiculously long. If you read this, you probably just wasted a good chunk of your life. Ha. Bye.

XOJM